What's your colour?
Currently, I am feeling green. It's totally different from "seeing green". When one says he's "feeling blue", it means he's feeling down, dejected. "Feeling green", meanwhile, is an expression I coined to relate to my current mental state.
While green symbolizes life and renewal in the nature, "feeling green" carries a contrary meaning. According to A Contemporary Dicksionary of Newly-Coined Terms, "green" can mean:
14. low in spirits; unmotivated; lifeless; lethargic: Many people feel green during the holidays.Yes. And I'm one of the "many people".
Winter vacation is almost over but I haven't managed to finish anything. First, there're reports sitting on my desk, five or six, I can faintly recall. Only one is half done. Second, 26 pages of documents to be translated. It's a freelance thingy I'm doing but only six pages have been done.
Uh, how long do I have till classes resume?
Including today, two.
Worse still, there's work today and tomorrow, where three more reports await.
What on earth have I been doing these past two weeks? It's like someone sped up the clock - I bet only one week has passed since winter vacation started. This is so unfair! One day should be as long as 48 hours.
Okay, I do recall the excursions during the Christmas and New Year week, where I spent half of my monthly budget on. Then there was a few days of work, more outings, a party and uh, well that's all.
The rest of the time, I beguiled with blogging. Two weeks after moving to this new blog and this is my fifteenth post - that's an average of one post a day. Okay, now that took away another chunk of my holiday.
Then there's all this time wasted when I just sit in front of the desk, zoning out. To a bystander, I would have looked not much animated than a pot of cactus.
But that's holiday, isn't it? You lose motivation, get lethargic and unproductive. Then when it comes to an end, you lament over your indolence.
Hell I hate holidays.